it is said that we are our own hardest critics because we hold a higher standard for our self and what we want from ourselves. some, like myself included, have such a high bar for ourselves that even when we succeed it’s not good enough and we feel nothing we accomplish will be good enough for us.
I am extremely hard on myself because I want to be great, I want to do the best I can, I want to feel like I’ve done something amazing. but when the moment comes, I tell myself that ‘it could be better if you worked harder, if you did this instead of that, etc.’ even when I do something amazing in someone else’s eyes, in my mind it looks like trash. I strive to make something beautiful but there is always that critical thought saying ‘I could have done better.’
but sometimes I do feel like my harshness pushes me to be great. like its the fire under my ass that can keep my going. it can help me believe that I can do something great if I try my best. and in the end, if I tried my best that’s all that matters.
but thank you though, anon.